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Proud; Also Exhausted, Bewildered, OUT (somewhat)!

Not necessarily in that order.

What with Pride, Good As You and other things, I’ve been meeting loads of people lately – it’s an active social life, with the disconcerting realisation that there are people here (not all of them, obviously, but an unexpectedly large number) whom I actively like. Friends!

It’s shocking.

Every so often one of them would say, You’re coming to the Pride Eval(uation) meeting, right? And after a point (when I figured out when and where it was) I’d say Maybe, Why Not and finally: Sure! Because, what the hell, it’s not like I have anything else to do.

Leave aside the issue of finding the goddamn ALF, which resides quietly and busily on Infantry road; I made my way there merrily enough, and then woke up to the realisation that most of the people there were, in fact, organisers, either officially or unofficially, and what the hell was I doing there?

Either because they remembered they’d invited me, or because they were too polite to throw me out, or because I’M SO AWESOME, they didn’t throw me out.

It was interesting – in fact, fascinating. I’ve known some of these people a while now, but always in a more social, non–meeting-with-agenda setting. The general air was pleased, but also somewhat brisk. Let’s wrap up this thing, it’s been going on for months now, and we’ve done well but we’re done.

The 2010 Bengaluru Pride was funded entirely through donations, with no corporate or institutional sponsorship. I’m not going into numbers, but they did well, especially considering how thankless a process collecting donations can be. Suffice it to say that Pride 2010 is safely in the black. Hooray for budgeting!

They went over the initial planning meetings. Was decision-making inclusive, egalitarian and inclusive? Apparently, (and with some surprise from unnamed people) yes. Were we to worry that the hijra presence seemed less obvious than the last two year’s? Yes, but also no: they’re currently in the middle of negotiation certain issues amongst themselves (not entirely sure, but it involves identity and identification); they’ve had some grief recently and needed to heal and deal; hey, they were there, whole-heartedly, for the things they wanted to be part of. But also yes, just because.

S (there were so many S’s, so this is S1) noted that there were more women and transgender persons in this Pride, making this the least patriarchal event so far. (Hah!)

Media coverage was another thing. The media coverage for 2010’s Pride was pretty shit. The discussion that went on here was long and rambling, but the final consensus seemed to be that

  • there needed to be an official media team, with members who had no (or very few) other duties
  • the Media Team need to chase/harass/be in constant touch with the actual media, reporters, reps etc. to make sure that whatever else, we’ve done our bit to keep them in the loop
  • next time, we should find the LGBT-friendly journalists (especially the older, established names) and get them to help!
  • the reporters who showed but didn’t write anything? we should contact them, do a little follow-up to see if they will now

S2 noted that while Pride may not have received the coverage we wanted, we weren’t sensationalised either, which is all to the good. R noted that sensationalism and coverage are the only ways we reach the people who’re still at home, closeted, hiding, or just feeling alone. On which stalemated note,  we moved on!

(I’ve shifted pronouns from “them” to “us”. I shall continue, because I’m self-involved enough to feel like it’s correct, but in all honesty I did feel a fraud to be there at all.)

Of overlapping concern was the website. It seemed obvious that the Media Team would have to be in close contact with the Website Team (and there needed to be a Website Team!). Whoever worked on the website would need to put things there in Kannada as well as English, right from the start. (Apparently uploading stuff in Kannada is a real hassle on the current site design, I dunno how that works.)

Every report needs to be in both English and Kannada – which lead on a tangent to the issue of translation. S2 spoke about the need to generate our own discourse in Kannada, lifting from English for terminology where convenient, or whatever. (There was talk of compiling a glossary of terms, which is geeky and adorable.) If necessary, the next time around we shall hunt up professional translators to do the job.

Next year’s Pride is likely to be in July, coinciding with the Naz judgement anniversary. July is a nicer time of year, if overly warm. (Planning would start in, like, April or so. That’s barely any time!)

G suggested that a week of concentrated events was silly. Why not stretch it out, with breaks, over a month? D added that this would be useful in making it a larger event, with some focus on Karnatakan queer persons (blanket-terming here, sorry) and not just the urban set.

(I’m not sure whether that’s a GREAT FUCKING AWESOME IDEA or a tiresome waste of an entire month where our lives will revolve around our statements of our sexualities whether we’re out or not. Or both at once, which is what most of my life feels like at the moment.)

S3 (3?) noted that the next Pride needs to be at least big as this event, and if possible, bigger. I am so fucking sorry for the poor sods who volunteer for the next Pride, really I am. Good luck, you, whoever you are!

I’m skipping over the individual events for the most part, except to make note:

  • panel discussions and open forum stuff is best scheduled to weekends and not weekdays during working hours
  • The Transgender Day of Remembrance is an event independent of Pride, and always will be (which means next year the organising, what’s needed of it, will be handled by someone other than the Pride Committee? Or will they do it too, as a last huzzah?)
  • The Drama Baazi and Film Shorts are likely to be long processes with exposure during Pride, but not limited in labour or time to that month

And the leftover cash? Hand it over to the next Pride group? Invest in merchandise? Fund the Film-maker and theatre enthusiasts? Keep it for themselves? (I still sort of think they should have!) Use it to start a Crisis Fund?

Finally, they decided to fund the follow-up events – such as the film-making etc. – and the rest goes to the next Pride.

There is a fascinating in watching these people – some of whom I am going to get to know very well, I hope – in a working scenario, however informal. In seeing the maneuverings of several trains of persistent thought and the negotiations between them – in three languages no less.

I’ll be in Bangalore still next July, and I hope I’m in contact with the cooks making Pride broth, just to see how they work together, how they make decisions and get things done. It seems so WEIRD, a bunch of random people working towards a common goal from their hearts as opposed to their wallets or need to serve a formal authority.

After which, we ate! And then I went home.

My mum, well, has been suspecting that I was hiding something for a while. And she pushed, a bit. Amongst other gems she asked:

  • were all these people I am hanging out with employed?
  • were the unemployed ones rich people with nothing better to do?
  • who were these people anyway?
  • could I not find people I liked this much in other groups?

So I told her I was “bi”. (It’s a rather limiting term really, especially in these days of fluid genders and sexualities, but it’s also convenient.) It didn’t go badly. Just not well.

In the conversation that followed, my mum decided to tell me that I am immature. In context, it sounded like she meant that with reference to my sexuality. In retrospect, I realise she meant it about all of me. She is perfectly okay with whom I may or may not love, may or may not marry.

Hooray for openness, unyay for self-respect, I guess.

Fortunately, the next day we hugged and made up. My mum is always more sensible in daylight. She hasn’t taken it back, about my immaturity, and of course I still fucking resent that. But it’s better than being thrown out of the house or told that my attractions aren’t valid or – well, whatever else people come up with.

(It turns out: I was invited to the Eval meet because I was there. No more, no less. The world does not revolve around you, Roh!)

(I was supposed to post this last Friday. When all of this actually happened. But I am lazy, and this is my blog so I can do what I like! Mwuhahahahaha, etc.)

Proud and Loud: Out in the Streets (!)

[So I deserve cookies today too, but since I am stuffed with garlic bread and cheese I shall forgo my demands of the universe and just ask for this post to be finished before midnight.

Edited before posting to add: It wasn’t. It’s 12:40 a.m. Next time, I’ll start earlier.]

I’ve never Marched for Pride before – it’s embarrassing to admit it, but I spent two whole years in Bangalore not even knowing they were happening. Where was my head? What was I doing? It’s a mystery. If I hadn’t been accidentally linked to Good As You, I’d never have even really believed there were LGBT people in Bangalore. And let’s not even start on what might have happened if I hadn’t screwed up the courage to go to a meeting – there’d be nothing to start with.

Anyway. I woke up this morning an hour earlier than I intended to because we had visitors. I watched Numb3rs. (Charlie Epps is so cute, etc.) I made careful purchases to ensure I wouldn’t collapse of deprivation while I walked – coke, granola bars, chocolate. (I learned today that granola bars are a dyke thing. Who knew?)

Then I wended my auto’d, expensive way to Majestic, and walked around until I saw a rainbow-coloured umbrella. And then another. Aha, my inner Sherlock said. This might be My People! And they were!

I was a few minutes early, and the actual walking didn’t start for nearly an hour. This was an hour spent socialising and making note of the people I’d met over the past few days and figuring out which ones I absolutely must talk to again because I actively like them. (Yeah, I’m talking about you. Of course I’m talking about you, babe, I love you! and so on.) I find it a little odd, how many people I recognise. It’s not a HUGE community, but I guess certain people show up everywhere  – because they’re active, they’re supportive, they’re gutsy, they’re proud, it’s either be seen or roll over and die – what have you. People were putting on the hats and masks and picking out posters and getting their faces painted.

I’d located KRI today, learned I could write about him as s/he if I pleased, watched as he got half a green moustache painted on hir face, and finally decided I too must be painted. There were, as far as I could make out, three people doing the painting. Pallavi, the only person I knew, was busy, so a tiny woman (it is very nice to be in Bangalore, where so many people are shorter than I am) called Francesca dabbled away at my left cheek. I couldn’t see the damn thing, though I had asked for Not Pink, and Whatever You Like, so I assumed it was pretty. Staring forbiddingly at my phone, daring her to think I was falling for her technological allure, I managed to take a photo of it. A small triumph for Machine, a Giant Victory over Roh-kind! (Over the course of the day, loads of people took photographs of said cheek. I shall hunt up a few and maybe put them here.)

So. At some point, when the crowd size and assorted noises (people, auto, loudspeaker, various percussion instruments, horn) reached critical mass – We Marched!

I must admit, I was a bit iffy about this whole marching business. I could ramble on and on about why I was ambiguous, but I shall make a tidy list instead.

  • Am I, in fact, all that proud? Dedicated readers might have noticed a certain yen for self-criticism. Does my acceptance of my sexual self indicate the kind of effusiveness the word “Pride” projects?
  • If I suggest that “Pride” is an act of defiance, of self-acceptance, of assertion of my Dignity as a sexual human being, am I steady enough in my Self to walk in public, making this statement?
  • Am I queer? I like women, and I like men; am I comfortable with the label of “bisexuality”, “queer”, granola-eating “dyke”? If I march, am I surrendering to these terms? Am I “committing”, and am I okay with that?
  • Does being not-straight truly make me one with all these people, these massed hordes none of whom seem similar to me, whether they’re L, G, B, T or unlabelled? Or “straight”?
  • Oh my gods, a three-hour walk? Won’t my feet fall off?

To answer some of these questions: I may not be proud of me, but I fucking well am proud of us. I’m not “like” all of these people, but that’s okay, I’m with them anyway. I don’t need the label, but it’s not technically inaccurate, and if it is, I’ll sort it out when I need to, and until then I’ll take a fucking chill pill. I’m not strange, but hey, why not, I’m queer and I’m here. I need to get over it. And oh heavenly gods, a three-hour walk, my feet felt like they’d fall off. (But no worries! They’re still here!)

I moved from the front to the back to the middle and sallied here and there. At one point, I wore a green wig.
I didn’t dance – I did wiggle my hips. Twice. Someone, I forget who, told me I needed to loosen up, but I kept things tight. I took a few photographs. I found most of the people I’ve met over the past few weeks. I held up posters now and again. I hugged. I shared the coke, which was nice of me.

I don’t think I stopped smiling the entire time. Don’t ask me why I was so happy. Why I’m still so happy. We were all fucking high on ourselves, and I swear even the policemen making sure we marched in a somewhat orderly manner cracked a smile every so often.

The Pride website tells me we marched from Tulsi Park (near Majestic bus station) through Anand Rao Circle, Freedom Park and Corporation Circle to Banappa Park. I wouldn’t know – that entire side of town is like the past and another country for me. (Also, I travel a lot by bus, which means I don’t always pay attention to how I’m going where I’m going.)

Well. Well. We got there. By now, even the most hardcore jumpy dancers were flagging. Akkai (Padmashali?) welcomed us all there – dudes, if we go by type alone, there were loads of us! Queer Trangendered F-to-M M-to-F Hijra Kothi Jogappa Gay Bi Lesbian Straight and I dunno what all. At that moment it just felt like there were masses and masses of us, and we were one big mushily loving family. (It is now past midnight on the 29th, and I am back to my charming, cynical, pessimistic self. But at that moment…)

Sumathi from Sangama, Ramesh Babu from the Janatha Dal Secular party, someone from the CSI (?) not sure about this last. Topics of interest were, of course, the Naz judgement, the appeal at the Supreme Court, Karnatakan government decisions to provide more assstance to the transgender community (loans, employment, the lot); and of course the stuff we’re still asking for  free Sexual Reassignment Surgery, lower costs for Anti Retroviral Treatments, the right to education and employment, the right to adopt… Sumathi mentioned, and for some reason I remembered this very clearly, more than anything else, that it was imperative that forced marriages be done away with – to force someone to be that miserable is kinda sucky. (She was more heartfelt than this, but I am being briefer than brief.) At some point, Akkai called some of the individual organisers (Tanvi, Siddharth, Amritha, Niruj, Sumathi, the other Siddharth[?])  up on to the stage and garlanded them, which was adorable.

Two friends of mine, J and A, showed up at around this point, not more than mildly shamefaced at having missed the actual walking. But they took me out for food and coffee after, so I forgive them. I was proud enough for all three of us, anyway.

No, really.

Being Proud – somewhat vocally this time

(You will note that today’s post (if you are in fact the sort to note such things) is neither tagged not categorised regarding my various social handicaps. I did very well today, and deserve a cookie. Two cookies! The whole damn box!)

I spent the last two days at home, recharging batteries I didn’t know were drained, which is code for “I stayed in bed and read books and watched Star Trek: The Original Series while dreaming of being girl!Spock and marrying Kirk.” (Shhhh! Don’t tell anyone.) This is what I missed:

a. Queer Words – In essence, poetry. I am not a poetry person. When I am, it’s emo poetry. You know the type, you probably wrote some yourself back when you were thirteen years old. I was thinking of attending a TFA meeting instead, but decided that I could not risk the potential poetry of the event. Someone is going to have to tell me if I missed anything good.

b. LGBT experiences in Karnataka – LGBT activists from smaller cities in Karnataka, as well as rural areas we in Bangalore can sometimes overlook in our urban perspectives,  led ‘a discussion on state-wide LGBT activism and possibilites of collaboration’. TN tells me it was a really good discussion, very informative. Also, there was dancing. I’m sorry I missed it, and I guess next time I’ll keep it in mind that I can’t afford to be lazy and hide behind my social nervousness to get out of doing stuff.

But today! Today I put on my Functional Literacy Hat. I ate my vegetables. I girded my loins to go to the Book Readings! Yay!

I got there the teensiest bit early and Helped by sitting at the t-shirts and stickers table for five minutes, selling five t-shirts and one sticker during my monopolistic reign of consumerist terror.

Vivek Shraya was our first writer today, reading out excerpts from his autobiographical collection, God Loves Hair. Shraya details life and love as he grew up, son of immigrant parents in Canada. His reading style was very clear – he’s obviously done this before. I gathered the sense of a bittersweet collection, rooted in a mature nostalgic perspective. I would have bought it if I’d had the cash for it. (500 ruppees! Fat chance.)

Illustrated by Juliana Neufeld

Shraya is also an alternative musician of some sort (sorry, Mr. Shraya, I’ll do better next time I blog about you!) and had one very enthused fan in the audience. (He has a lovely voice.) N was jumpily pleased to have met Shraya and got his autographed, and we jumped together to express her excitement. It was fun. Hi, N! I’m hoping I see you tomorrow!

Mahesh Natarajan is a very different sort of writer (for one thing, he has a lot less hair). His voice is, unfortunately, less clear (I always think it a pity when one speaker has a clearer voice than the other. I don’t think I’d notice if it weren’t for the comparison.) For all that, Natarajan’s stories hit a bit closer to home, if only because they’re set a bit closer to home. Natarajan now works as a counsellor (for Swabhava? I think he works for Swabhava).

Cover design by Aditya Dubey - the sheep are cream coloured, oddly enough

This was Natarajan’s first reading – I did pick up his book, since the domestic publisher (Gyaana books) priced it at a very comfortable Rs. 165/-. Natarajan’s parents haven’t read the book yet, but his mum says she will. Slowly. The official book launch in Bangalore is happening on the 8th of December, at one of the Oxford bookstores. Apparently Dr. Sekhar Seshadri from NIMHANS will be presiding as guest of honour, which is quite a coup for a book release, it seems to me. 🙂

After which, we broke for tea; I bought a pride tshirt (with the lovely mango logo on it) and I made sure I had pens to spare. (I also did other stuff, but since I didn’t write it down I don’t remember it. Oooh I talked to N for a bit. And I think someone told me he needed to speak to me. Who was that? Damn.)

Part two of this event has no pictures! 😦

Reflections and Post-377 Priorities

Sumathi from Sangama and Swathi from – I dunno where. Damn. I shall find out when Niruj puts up the report tomorrow. Anyway. Swathi and Sumathi chaired the open forum that followed. I took notes sporadically, but I shall type up a basic summary/list of the nearly-three hour multi-pronged conversation that followed:

  • Vinay (of Swabhava/Good As You goodness) pointed out that pretty much everything that was raised as an issue – employment, adoption, housing, the lot – would be tackled across all points by some sort of anti-discrimination law/official state policy.
  • Activism might have to aim at forcing social/government acceptance of LGBT peoples – in which case, activism would have to decide who its target audience is. Activism would also need to be a process, as opposed to contained events hoping to raise awareness.
  • The issue of the medical establishment – costs of procedures such as Sex Reassignment Surgery, behaviours of the professionals involved in our care, access we (LGBT people in general, though I think at these points the conversations got specific to the transgender communities and perhaps those who were HIV+) have to hospitals and medical care. There’s also the issue of the patient’s own knowledge – you cannot be an advocate for your own care if you do not know what your options are, or if your doctors will not give a damn.
  • We were all agreed that education – first in th simple “raising awareness” sense – was of some priority. JM reminded us that at some point raising awareness had to mean “bringing forth an understanding of acceptance and toleration” as opposed to simply informing the world that LGBT people exist. College students need to be approached in a way that makes them feel cool, since the youth these days, according to him, tend to sit in theatres and text all the time. We must bow to his more recent knowledge of college behaviour. Sumathi reminded us that education can happen in a more informal setting, completely divorced from schools and colleges – and that our containment to these institutions was rather discriminatory of us.

There was quite a lot more – remind me to talk about the desecration of dead here sometime, since that’s a fun topic of conversation, but these are the bits that stay with me.

After which, I was interviewed by someone doing research on queer women in urban spaces – they bought me dinner! (I’m not sure I should blither their name all over this post, so I shall not.) I felt very important and coherent, though really the interview just reestablished that I am very ambiguous and have no set opinions of my very own.

There’s some sort of Pride Benefit party happening right now – as I type! – set to go on till 2 a.m. T, Niruj, S and co. told me I should come along, but I pooh-poohed and otherwise poured scorn on the idea of partying, and came home.

Tomorrow is the March! I’ll bring my party wrist bands, and see you all at Tulsi Park!

Being Proud Part 3: the word “queer” is ours now

1. This is Bangalore, and most of the people at SCM House today will know what I mean when I say, Goddam, I never want to take an auto again. I want a car and a driver and a pony, and the pony’s hair should be tied up with a pretty ribbon and angels should follow me around singing my praises.

I’ll settle for an auto driver who doesn’t dump me in the middle of nowhere (okay, somewhere on Mission Road) vaguely telling me we’re right outside SCM House.

We weren’t. I was already 20 minutes late, which makes me nervous, anxious and unhappy, and  I spent another 10 minutes asking people where CSI Compound was and keeping a beady eye out for Priyadarshini Silk House (mentioned in the directions on the Bangalore Pride site). In retrospect I realise I walked a nearly full circle before I found two women walking their dog who told me where SCM House could be found. Hooray for dogs! If those women had owned a cat I’d still be lost. I said hi to D, who was manning the door and taking care of the Queer Ink books, and made my way in the darkness to a chair.

2. 

Before the Pride and Queer Habba began, 20 people took part in a film-making workshop, which was led by T. Jayashree, Deepu, and Siddharth Chadda. After what seems like the funnest time ever, they split up into four groups, each group making a short film (ten minutes max?) about something close to their hearts.

Since I was late, I missed most of the first film. I caught the last few minutes, enough to gather that it was about Kiran, a transgender person who is wheel-chair bound. Kiran spoke of the ways in which he is vulnerable in our society, when his mobility is hindered, his body is weak, and his identity is ignored or dismissed. But the film wasn’t about his sorrows, it was about his strengths, and his ongoing journey – moving to Bangalore to live as he wishes to live. The film is called Prathibhatane, ‘Challenge”, and was made by Pavan, Christy and Kiran, who wanted to tell his own story.

Kaadhal Thirunal, or ‘The Festival of Love’ shows us two lesbian women sharing their life and love, with added poetry. Actually, “through the medium of poetry”. I must admit I found this one overly soppy, but a feel-good movie about love and the courage it gives us, ending with a kiss, about lesbians, is not actually a bad thing.  And this peachy honeymoon love came with a price – both women have left home, their family and relatives, migrated to Bangalore, to have this life together.  Bharathi, Gayathri and Rajesh made the film, and one of the women nearly cried when she told us that this was the movie she’d wanted to make – living like this, with the people we love, with financial security. That’s the fantasy, the dream, and really it’s not much to ask for, or take.

Amritha, Charu, Kannan and Siddharth, collectively ‘Sticky Juice Productions’, showed us A Dream Not Deferred – focussing on Charu and his life as a transgender man. The triumph of living as he wishes to be and the problems of living in a body that betrays itself as female unless tightly packed down. Charu left behind a husband and a child, and wonders how he will find the courage to tell the child, “I am your father”. Amritha said later, “Charu’s story is so compelling, we decided to go with it.” (There was a guy in the audience who asked “How is it a dream not deferred if she cannot speak to her child?” which is more faux pas than should be allowed in a single question. The rest of us [actually, I didn’t shout, too busy being embarrassed for him] that Charu is a “he”, at which point he bemusedly corrected himself and was told that living as we want to live, instead of waiting for our parents, husbands, children, what-have-you is the dream not deferred. At least, for some of us it is.)

The Flamboyant Flamingos, Charan, Sandeep and XX (I haven’t written his name down, I suck at this reporting lark) gave us On the Prowl, to the tune of ‘I wanna mmmm’ by The Lawyer. This is fun music video, detailing the epic quest of a guy cruising through the streets of Bangalore, the people he meets. When will his journey end? etc. The video is full of familiar faces and I don’t think there were any moments of quiet in the hall. At all. It was hilarious.

To close things off, the chief guest Ayesha (independent artist, filmmaker, served on the board of Sangama, currently on faculty of Srishti) gave each team The Famila Award, newly instated in memory of Famila, late activist who is dearly missed by her friends.

A woman – she looked maybe a few years younger than my mum  came onstage, congratulated the film-makers, told us all that she and her parents had enjoyed it very much, but had one thing she wanted to ask us: No to call our Habba “Queer”. Because it’s such a word. She was very sweet about it. NMR informed her that we took back “queer” decades ago, made it our own. It’s for LGBT people, people who don’t fit into LGBT “categories”, for anyone who wants to be, I suppose. It’s our word now, bitches! (He didn’t say “bitches”, but the point stands.) At which point things broke up.  I contemplated hanging around talking to people, but my frazzled nerves reminded me that it would be nice to go home and rest, so I went outside.

3. The universe had decided to make me prove my worth today, though, so as I was standing at the book table, buying some stickers (yes, yes, I know), AM, whom I’d met a week or two ago and had a long conversation with about prostitution and our attitudes to it (he: take them as individuals; me: I find it hard to accept that it’s a good job to them, even though money is a good thing and we need it to survive! though I am willing to listen, always) came up and said hi. It took me a few seconds to place him. Then I had to explain why it took me so long to recognise him, and my feeble “I don’t always recognise people outside of their original context” is making me cringe even now. I also had to defend myself from D and VP, explaining why I will not be going to the Lavender Night Benefit Party. (It’s simple enough: I don’t party.)

Enough was enough! I slunk off, hoping against hope I wouldn’t meet anyone else to whom I could say something utterly stupid or socially inept. I did smile at someone who smiled back and engaged me in conversation, but this one went fairly well:

She: Are you the blogger?

Me: Er, well, I am a blogger.

She: Rohini?

Me: Yes! This is a good thing, yes?

She: Yes.

However, extracting payment for conducting a conversation without making me look like a tool, my brain has decided to forget her name. Still. I am famous now! All I need is a pony and a boob job and my life’s work will be complete.

(Edited on 28th November 2010 to add: Nithin in the comments reminds me that her name is Namita, which means she’d’ve been “N” here had I remembered it when I should have. N, you made my day!)

Queer Words is tomorrow, 6-8, at Jaaga. I am not committed enough to being bi to sit through two whole hours of poetry, so I am going here instead, on the off-chance that there will be prose. Tonight, I shall rest the rest of the introvertedly weary. I hope all the extroverts have extra fun for me over the next few days – I’m thinking of you guys!